[Episode 11]
Can't you play it well?
Let's play with other kids, okay?
What about me?
I can play it well too.
Like this.
Hello, kids.
Hello, Auntie.
Hi, this is Lin Xiao Ou.
Hello, Lin Xiao Ou.
Call them sisters.
Hello, sisters.
Can we join you?
-Yes. -Yes.
-Sure. -Sure.
Lin Xiao Ou, do you know how to play badminton?
-Let's play another game. -No, I don't.
Eagle catching young chicks?
Okay?
Sure.
Come, I'll be the eager first.
Come, ready.
Go!
Start!
Here!
I'll catch you!
Go behind there!
You're something!
I got you, you're out.
Lin Xu Zhi.
You're really something.
I've helped you...
to trick Xiao Guo.
And you?
Why didn't you send her back?
You're making use of me.
I'm sorry.
You can't just say sorry.
You should at least explain yourself.
You're so heartless, Lin Xu Zhi.
Lin Xu Zhi!
You're...
No, don't run!
I've been feeling that...
no one cares about me.
Pessimistic, sorrow, and desperation.
Congratulations.
That's prenatal depression.
What sound is that?
Your baby's heartbeat.
It sounds so good.
It's your family.
I've met many pregnant women...
who, upon hearing their babies' heartbeats,
cried, laughed, or even screamed.
And it's my first time seeing...
an unresponsive one like you.
It's done.
I'm surrounded by many people.
But I don't feel loved.
If I give birth to him,
he'll be more pitiful.
Being a mother isn't easy at all.
Every child is an independent person.
He won't grow up as what you want him to be.
Also,
there's no way for a mother to turn back.
Once you've made up your mind,
just go ahead...
and move forward.
But I'm not courageous enough to move forward.
I do...
feel tired taking care of my baby.
But I never feel regret giving birth to him.
Because he did change my life.
It's a reality.
You may leave now.
Next!
Here.
Good.
Here.
Eat slowly.
Here,
eat well.
Here,
eat well.
Good.
Eat slowly.
There.
[Closed]
[Open]
Here,
eat more.
Good.
Eat more.
Okay, eat slowly.
Good.
That's great.
Xu Zhi.
Come in here.
How's Xiao Ou doing?
Surely she's happy...
being with her favorite mother.
That's the reason she decided to go with you.
If it were an escape,
she'd be willing to be with you.
Why did you abandon me?
I'll get you some drink.
Just give me any reason.
I'll accept it.
I just want to know...
why you abandoned me.
I...
I don't know...
if I can answer that.
Or, you don't want to?
There're questions...
which should be left unanswered.
Because they're the best answers.
No,
at least I don't think so.
I have a blackhole in my mind...
which keeps reminding me every day.
I did try to persuade myself to leave it all behind.
But I'm a human being after all.
I have thoughts and emotions.
And I need a complete life.
Auntie Zhong.
Auntie Zhong, are you home?
I'm Guo Yue.
Coming.
Auntie Zhong, are you home?
I'm Guo Yue.
Auntie Zhong,
can we talk inside?
I don't think we have anything to talk about.
Just say it here and now.
Auntie Zhong,
I don't have bad intentions.
I just want to know this.
You said...
you lost your daughter during the escape.
It's been so many years.
Don't you want to find her?
If you want to, I can help.
No, I don't.
Auntie Zhong, please don't say so.
She's your child.
I'm sure she wants to find you too.
That's just your assumption.
Auntie Zhong,
my hair has grown too long.
Can I get a haircut?
It's daytime, but your shop is closed.
Are you having a guest?
It's none of your business.
This is my shop.
Do I need to tell you everything about it?
No, that's not what I meant.
I was just asking.
You've asked me too many things.
Let's make it clear for one last time.
I don't want to be bothered by the past.
I've paid for what I did.
Can you leave me alone,
Sir?
Auntie Zhong.
Do I have anything to do with the escape?
No,
you don't.
He said...
you lost me during the escape.
Did you lose...
or abandon me?
Why did you ask me out?
You found my daughter?
No.
I haven't seen her since then.
But...
I'm a media worker with conscience.
I can't forget...
what happened to you.
It's simply terrible.
I'll try my best...
to help you.
How?
Crowdfunding?
Someone like me doesn't need money.
No,
money can't heal your wounded heart.
The most important thing to do is to resolve the grievance.
For example,
the grievance between you and that lady.
Here's the thing.
You said she didn't cause the fire.
But she admitted the crime and got into jail.
Is there any misunderstanding...
or ill feeling between you?
No matter what,
it's been thirty years.
It's time to get over it.
That's why...
I asked you out.
I'm willing to be your witness.
Both of you would sit down...
and talk things over.
Of course,
you'd talk about...
your daughter too.
Your idea...
does sound interesting.
Yes.
I did abandon you.
I'm sorry.
Did I do something wrong?
No,
it's all my fault.
I was being reckless.
I hurt someone...
and ran away.
I had nowhere to run...
and...
I...
abandoned you.
Then,
I was in jail for fifteen years.
But you don't...
look like someone who would do such cruel thing.
One would experience many things...
in his whole life.
There are times he'd have to make difficult decisions.
Where's my father?
Where was he?
He...
passed away.
How?
Terminal illness.
The healthcare wasn't good back then.
And we were too poor to afford treatment.
That's why he passed away in no time.
I don't remember any of these.
I remember nothing about him.
He's not in my memory.
He died when you were still young.
It's great that you don't remember him,
otherwise you would feel upset.
What about you?
When did you find out that I'm your daughter?
You care about Xiao Ou so much...
because you know who I am,
right?
I know you're my daughter because I'm your mother.
You're always in my mind.
You have been in jail for fifteen years.
But I've been losing you for thirty years.
What were you doing in other fifteen years?
I...
Zhong Hui...
is very stubborn.
You can't expect her...
to answer your questions.
Uncle,
you're right.
Let's do this instead.
Let's go eat...
and talk about it.
We'll come back here later.
No,
that's a very good idea.
I like to do things quickly.
Come,
we'll sit here and talk about it.
And we'll come up with a plan.
But I'm hungry.
I can't think without eating.
There's a nice restaurant nearby.
If I don't eat now, I'll get low blood sugar.
Let's go now.
I'm not eating. I'll just sit here.
Just come back here after your meal.
Forget about it.
I'm being accused of abduction.
You didn't raise me up,
but we walk the same path.
Please don't go.
Can we talk?
Don't touch me!
I'm sorry.
I just want you to stay.
I can be...
her grandmother in name only.
I can just stand on the bridge,
watching and protecting you.
That's all I want.
I'm happy that you're here.
It's an opportunity for both of us.
I thought I'd...
spend my whole life in this shop.
What are you talking about?
Don't mind me.
Just see me as a crazy person.
I just want you to stay.
Forget about it,
[Mu Jing]
I have something else to do.
Let's meet another time, okay?
Don't forget to eat.
Uncle,
you can't leave now.
I don't like being forced to do things.
Xiao Ou.
Auntie Guo Zhi.
Guess what I got for you.
Guess it.
Comic book?
Nope.
Puzzle?
Little bunny?
I'm turning...
you into a princess.
Yeah!
What's wrong?
You don't like it?
Mum!
I like it.
Auntie Guo Zhi, I like it so much.
Then, let's try it on.
Here.
Mum.
Tell me...
what's wrong.
Auntie Guo Zhi,
I'm fine.
I didn't do anything.
Don't buy her gauze dresses again.
Throw that dress away.
Are you hiding something?
No.
It's just a dress.
Don't be afraid.
Why is she sleeping here?
Darling.
Why is she here?
Get up!
Mum, what are you doing?
What is this?
It's what you think it is.
What happened between you and Guo Dong?
What else could it be?
He quit all of a sudden.
What else can I do?
Be a struggling single mother...
for eighteen years?
I'm not that great.
Did you give it a thought?
You got married today. And you break up tomorrow.
What comes next?
What if you regret it?
You can't just give up a child like that!
I don't know.
Did you give it a thought before giving birth to me?
I've forgotten it.
But I never feel regret...
having you all.
That's it.
It's okay if one doesn't give it a thought.
As long as he or she doesn't feel regret doing it.
Mum,
we made different decisions.
But it's no big deal...
because we're from two different generations.
That's why...
our decisions weren't same, right?
No...
Mum.
It's just a minor surgery.
Don't worry about me.
I'll go to sleep now.
Go to your bed.
Don't sleep here, you'll catch cold.
Hurry up.
Go upstairs.
Fine.
Is that Guo Dong?
You must be Xiao Ou.
Xiao Ou,
don't get nervous.
We're in a hospital.
But I'm just going to talk to you.
No injection or medicine.
You can ask your mother if you don't believe me.
Do you like going to school?
How's your relationship with your classmates?
I haven't started going to school yet.
But I like playing with other kids.
Yes, she's having some medical issue.
That's why we deferred admission for a year.
Doctor, I have a question.
She's scared of...
some things in life.
That's why...
I want to know...
how she can overcome her fear.
Things in life?
What are they?
Clothes in specific colors.
Did something happen...
while she's wearing clothes in those colors?
That's why she has some bad memories.
Yes.
That's why I want to know...
how she can...
overcome those memories.
Because it's harder to do so...
if she keeps running away from them.
I see, you do know something about it.
It's a form of mental phenomena.
But...
you need to tell me what happened,
otherwise I can't help her.
Do I need to tell you everything?
She's hurt physically and...
emotionally.
And it's quite serious.
Do you have anything to do with it?
In psychology,
there's a mental phenomenon.
On the surface,
she seems to be sick.
But if we trace its origin,
you'll find out that...
someone close to her...
is having much serious illness.
But that person hides it deeply.
In their relationship,
this hidden patient...
is always the superior one.
And the visible patient...
is deeply influenced by her.
When we face this kind of situation,
we'll treat the more critical patient.
That's the only way to save the other.
Ms. Lin.
I think...
you should see me personally.
Auntie,
my mother's the best mother in the world.
Mum, let's go now.
I'll get well eventually.
I'm sorry.
Please excuse us.
Did you make your appointment?
Doctor,
I'm not here for therapy.
I need to ask you something.
What is it?
Why were the mother and her daughter here?
Anything wrong with that child?
Why are you asking this?
Are you tailing them?
What can I do?
She's my ex-wife.
And I'm not allowed to see the child.
I knew our divorce...
would affect the child emotionally.
And now they're here to see you.
That's why I feel very panic.
You get it?
Have a seat.
I've talked to Guo Dong.
Why did you do that?
What did he say?
What he said is not important at all.
He's...
not responsible at all.
He won't be a good father.
Mum, stop.
I need to go for the surgery.
Before you go,
can you listen to a story?
If you insist on having the surgery...
after listening to my story,
I'll go with you.
If you change your mind,
I'll support your decision.
I'll stay with you...
until you deliver the baby safely.
Okay?
Come.
I was pregnant with a baby for six months.
Your father told me that...
he'd taken hundreds of thousands of yuan from others...
to buy color televisions.
What happened then?
He lost all of the money.
[IOU]
What's wrong?
My stomach.
It came without any signs.
I lost...
a six-month-old daughter.
My world came tumbling down.
I became an alcoholic eventually.
And I needed to face your father every day.
He promised me...
not to gamble again.
What else could I do?
I could only smile at him and be a supportive wife.
You have no idea how heartbroken I was.
Mum.
How did you make it through all this?
Such a miserable life...
went on for so long.
It ended after having your sister.
She was the one who healed me.
I guess she's not that useless after all.
Let me hug you.
Mum.
I...
I'm scared.
Don't be afraid.
Don't be afraid, I'm right here with you.
I haven't found out...
your child's problem.
But I'd like to know...
what your ex-wife is like.
Can you tell me?
My ex-wife?
She's hot-tempered,
stubborn,
and unfriendly.
She's simply unapproachable.
It's hard to talk to her.
In short,
she's not normal at all.
That's why...
we divorced.
Do you think she abuses your child?
That's impossible.
I can guarantee that.
Yes, she's quite weird.
But she's a kind person...
and a good mother.
And she treats our child well.
That's quite obvious.
But she doesn't allow you to see your child.
A good mother...
would never do that.
You're right. It's all my fault.
We're having a big misunderstanding.
But no matter what,
it's not her fault.
She does what's best for our child.
But it's such a shame.
What?
It's such a shame that you're divorced.
You still love her.
Who am I
To be so miserable
Dashing all the time
But missing out on someone
I want to hug you
And protect you from harm
I want to see you
When you grow up
I want to
Sing for you
Until love no longer
Leaves you
Every inferiority has
Heard its confession
Everything can still make it
With compassion
I want to hug you
And protect you from harm
I want to see you
When you grow up
I want to
Sing for you
Until love no longer
Leaves you